Beetle

so... here's another song that is relevant to parts of my life...Changing by Saosin. look it up, it rocks.

You fall apart each time you start to say goodbye
But there is nobody watching.
(nobody watching)
You've watched your grip, you step and slip but don't know why.
And this is just the beginning.
(just the beginning)
You had the hopes to make it last, it's moving fast.
And now you're realizing.
(realizing)
That in the past, the dreams you had make people feel
Like you were just reciting.
(just reciting)

Bathing in the afterglow;
A chance at luck and pride.
Where we end up we can never know.
And all I know is we seem to be

Changing, better to turn and walk away.
Fading, all these lights just turn to gray.
Changing, better to turn and walk away.
But the strange thing
Is that I don't feel a thing.

This is an act, stop holding back. The things you lost
Cannot replace what's missing.
(replace what's missing)
And from the start you played the part and now your heart's
Become a great deception.

Bathing in the afterglow;
A chance at luck and pride.
When we end up we can never know.
All I know is we seem to be

Changing, better to turn and walk away.
Fading, all these lights just turn to gray.
Changing, better to turn and walk away.
But the strange thing
Is that I don't feel a thing.

One last breath to say goodbye.
I tell myself another lie.
Stripped of all I hold so dear.
The moment's lost.
And I am sinking down lower,
I drown myself in the water.
And I am watching my life pass before my eyes,
It comes as no surprise.

You fall apart and then you stop.
You fall apart and then you stop.
You fall apart and then you...
Stop.

Changing, better to turn and walk away.
Fading, all these lights just turn to gray.
Now I'm changing, better to turn and walk away.
But the strange thing
Is that I don't feel a thing.

You fall apart and then you stop.
You fall apart and then you stop.
You fall apart and then you...
Stop.

Full Stomach

Well, I have one full week left in Tomball, and then next Wed, it's off to Amherst. I still have to find a cosigner for the apartment, and get those review sheets for spanish. financial aid stuff will be faxed monday, i'm gonna call my possible job on monday to see if i have one, and so basically everything must be wrapped up this week.

Lots of pressure...

Man, it's all so final. Because I have an apartment and a job up there too, i'll prolly spend more time up in Mass. Like in the summer, i'll prolly spend 1/2 of it up there instead of all in Tomball.

Augh. Stress.

Red, Yellow

As far as work goes: meh, it could be better, could be worse. I only have 2 paychecks left, so... :( i'll be on a strict budget when I get up there.

the possible job: almost locked. I talked to the manager there and told her my situation and qualifications, and they're hiring, so most likely I will have a job. *yay*

financial aid: mom has filed taxes, according to the govt, I have to be a DEPENDENT student, ugh. So, as long as everything is faxed monday it should be fine, we'll get it processed, and then I'll have to do some loans.

roomie sitch: so, there's one person interested, but wants her own room... and there's only 2 rooms. And there's a girl from India I talked to about a month ago about some orientation stuff, and she's looking for housing, so she might be my roomie. we shall see about all this.

GR, GS

Falling Away to Amhertz

Well, as far as work goes, I will be working at AoP until the 28. My boss is being a child about it, so she's not really talking to me. Hasn't been for the past 2 weeks and probably won't for the rest of the month. Whatever. Anyway, so the drive to Mass will start Sept 1 and we'll prolly arrive on the night of the next day. Then, school starts on the 7th, and i have to take a spanish test that day, then a math test on the 13. No roomies so far, but hopefully someone will turn out soon. I have the apartment all set and ready to go :) Financial Aid however, is a much slower process with much bureaucracy. Eugh. I'm starting to pack, starting with my clothes, and trying to see how I can fit everything basically in my trunk. (My mom will be on passenger side, and two dogs w/booster will take up one seat) I still have to call the bow wow place and see if they will hold a spot for me to be hired.

Trying to hang out w/all the rest of the tomball ppl b4 they all go off to their designated colleges. The only one I will see during the year will be Alexandria cuz she'll be in Cambridge. (2.5 hrs away) The other good thing about UMass is that it's 4 hrs away from my cousins (on my dad's side) who I never get to see. And also, it's the exact distance from tomball-corpus is amherst-philadelphia. Can't wait for some cheesesteaks! The only thing is... they all like fish up there. I can't stand fish. Bleh.

I think i already blogged abt this, but during first week they have all the expos for clubs and a concert with We The Kings (for UMass students only) :) Well, it's a busy busy time, but it's all exciting and I can't wait!

Chipping Away

So, updates:
-going to UMass
-working on financial aid junk
-obtained an apartment
-possible job when up there

so, everything is going smoothly except for the bill. but money is a separate issue from real life. so, here are my plans
1. The trip will take 30 hours. My mom (traveling with) has a high school reunion the saturday before school begins, so we're leaving sunday morning, and if we have 5 six-hour shifts, we should make it there by monday afternoon, the day before school starts.
2. Go talk to bow wow bathhouse about job. Go talk to dojo master about tagayake for martial arts.
3. Take a spanish test, go to Math dept for tutor for math test the next week.
4. Go to BB+B and walmart, and pick up items from layaway.
5. Activity expo: check out speech/debate, field hockey, praise team
6. Go see We The Kings in concert on friday!:)

Memos

So, updates: the opener, the day after her last day, decided not to quit, so now I don't have to work 80 hours a week. lol. anyway, so some more updates, orientation is 21-22, however it's full so i have to call and see. no news on housing so far, but i'm still looking for roommates just in case. Mushu got a haircut and he looks adorable! :) Can't wait for college. Finally having a major (I still have to work on that interdisciplinary thing) is going to be nice, because I'll have more focus and be done with the boring gen eds that I already know about. Besides that... let's see.... i've lost 10 lbs since january :D so i'm pretty sure i'll look fab for the new school year. too bad i'll prolly need more fluff when it gets cold, lol. This blog was so unorganized today.

Unfolding

I haven't posted here in a while, but whatever. Ok, so at work, Chelsea, our opener is quitting in 2 weeks, so i have to hire another person. lots of extra overtime for me, which will burn me out, but lots of moola and hate. oh well. anyway, I was also accepted to U Mass which is where I want to go to. Hm... how do I balance these two things? well, i've been considering several options and also talked about some things with my mom, so, here's what I'm thinking.

-Co-owning pet store for 2 years while in college and working when not on semester, getting a feel for the business etc.
- also going to college, but keeping a fax and cell handy for employee questions, marketing, scheduling, etc.
-writing my book as part of my major???
^ how does that sound, hm?

several opportunities have been presented and maybe the best option for a multi-tasker like me is to do all at the same time. opinions?