Who thought this up?

Well, the past few days I've been bombarded with negative images of what my life's gonna be like. I'll be in debt, choose the wrong college, choose the wrong major, chose the wrong parent, chose the wrong state, etc, etc.
Well,
now, I've left the back door open to the store. (where I work)
there's an old dog who lives there.
I closed the door, did some stuff, head was already out-of-whack from crazy stuff, and then took out trash, and forgot to check back door.
No more than 30 min after I leave, patrolling cop sees door open, is almost attacked by dog, and tazers her.
Obvious to say, I am never working at Accent on Pets again.
I'm glad that Mercy's alive.

Hm. Thinking maybe choose a day for everybody who works there to grill me and then take my leave officially.

Now, before you say it was just one mistake. I've forgotten stuff at closing before, and I'm the one who's been there the longest so i should know what I'm doing. No doubt everybody there hates me right now and will be forever disappointed.

I can't work there ever again because most likely:
- no one will forgive me
- I will feel death stares for the remainder
- I will have no respect
- I deserve whatever criticism will be talked about every day
- I will be reminded every day about what could've happened to Mercy

so. now I have no job. that's it.

Decisions, decisions....

Well, my original plan was to go to Sterling College in KS w/ tuition being 9 grand b/c of scholarships + room and board and stuff.
But NOW, i have another option: I could stay w/my boss and have a floor to myself w/good rent rate and go to a closer college.
So....
dorm vs floor
social vs a lil less social?
no guarantee of job vs part-time
far vs close
christian vs secular (or christian)
out of state rate vs in-state
accepted vs possible registration (w/connections)

AAAAaaHHHhhh! I don't know what to do!

there are so many pros and cons to both of them. I just don't know what path to go on. anyone wanna help me choose?

Prom

I'll have to address it sooner or later...

even though, i've already been to a prom, not what i expected.
We took pictures yahda, yahda,
we took a limo, kinda cool,
went to eat, ok, tasty,
then prom.
...
yeah.
I had to drag around my date the whole time and he couldn't dance! at ALL. I had little interest in him in the first place, but this just confirmed he is NOT the guy for me. He had a "I dunno what do u wanna do?" attitude the whole night. It was more irksome than endearing.

Project prom was fun when i beat ppl at games, but, same annoyance and etc.
However, I did win a sweet webcam.

Yeah, that's it.