Busy Lizzie

Hellooooo

So, it's been a very busy few weeks for me:

I got that art studio deal all worked out, and will also be on the publicity/marketing team (b/c of my experience), so I'll be able to put that on my resume (yay!), and also help out a place that should stay in business.

I'm already done with one of the four paintings, and have the next 3 sketched out on the canvas.

Here's some news, my oldest brother is getting married next month. Yes, NEXT MONTH, and he just told me last week. So, the wedding is in Florida and I'm in the bridal party. Can't wait!

Also, B+BW is going well. I'm not working too much there, but it's helping to buy groceries.

It just occurred to me I haven't been out with the outing club lately. I wish I could go, but I've just been busy on the days they have the hikes. Grr.

About my poetry book that has been stuck in a limbo b/c of the whole money thing: I found a contest and submitted a few poems to be considered. If I get to the finalist round (results on Dec. 1), then I submit my full manuscript. If they like it, they'll publish it. (hooray!) And if this doesn't pan out, well, then it's back to plan A.

Speaking of writing, while I was working on writing tonight (first time I've written in a few months) I've discovered the second book of poetry will be much harder than the first. Why? Because I used a variety of phrases, concepts, and words that have filled over 100 pages. I'm not going to reuse them. You know what that means? I'm competing against myself. One thing I don't think I've ever had to do is compete against myself. Sure, novel writing you can have different plots and ideas to be conveyed, so there's room for more variety. Art can be anything I want, and it's not too much of an effort to be original even to myself. But writing poetry? After writing so much in very certain ways, I don't want to reuse phrases (or even words in some cases) in order to not be repetitive, or repeat the same book. So, I do like my style that I had in my first book, but I think this is giving more room to try out different forms. I'm also discovering I have a serious style, and a fun style, among other things. Either way, competing against myself just feels like the wierdest concept to me.

Next thing, last Saturday was a wierd one. It started out with someone defrosting MY BEEF that I bought. Geez. And then the landlord saying "If I don't have time for a dog, then I shouldn't have a dog" basically. I pay his vet bills, his hair cuts, his food, etc. And I'm not a good owner? Basically, that's saying that anyone with a job shouldn't have a dog. What the heck. So after these two things pissed me off, then when I get on the highway, two people almost crash into me. For the same purpose. They both try to get in my lane. (this is on two separate occasions, but on the same stretch of road, for the same reason) One didn't even have a left-hand side mirror. You would think they'd check their blind spot. Margh. Then I get to work, and it's a super-busy day. Oy. Anyway, good thing is, is that after work I went to a coworker's house and the gang watched Power Rangers and the Walking Dead.

Then, busy week of art time, working, karate, gym time, etc.

So, moving on to tonight, my plan was just to go to a lecture, and then go home. Well, first off, wednesday night is usually bible study, but this time pastor encouraged us to attend this lecture on Islam at a mosque. So, I go, find out some interesting points, and meet some very nice people. I head out for the night, planning to go home, or go to starbucks, whichever I feel like when I get to town. I decided to go to starbucks, but went to the ATM first, who do I meet on the sidewalk but a few people I was talking to? Well, they invite me to dinner, and we have a very nice dinner (filled with stories, intro stories, and such), and had awesome Persian food to enjoy with cool people. Either way, after that kwinky-dink, I decide I still want to write something by the end of the night, and chatter with some of my old coworkers and get a salted caramel un-mocha. There are limited seats, so I end up sharing a table, and having conversations about poetry, horrendous school food, and such with a nice person. I ended up getting about 3 poems done, and came to the realization I explained earlier about having to compete with myself. When I do come home, some of the guys are hanging around upstairs, and of course, comment on my outfit (I actually tried today). You know how that goes.

Speaking of guys, it's just funny. Let's just say them being interested vs me being interested is always a dilemma. It's not that I don't want a relationship or anything, but whether it's for the right reason is where it's a problem. Even if I'm not in a relationship, if I do start to be in one, I don't want to lie to anyone (including myself) about what the best decisions are. Yes, I rationalize too much, but I don't want to go about things the wrong way and end up complicating my life too much.

Different note, as far as work goes, yes I have this part time job, as well as my full time job, as well as art, but I'm wondering if I should switch it around a bit. Right now I'm only a barista, and I want to get promoted to the next position, but where I'm at is probably not the best place to grow in that area. My problem is that I'm too loyal for my own good. I really do need more money to get things taken care of. I'm wondering if after the holiday season if I should transfer to another store where I have more room for growth. And then maybe also work on getting the promotion at B+BW maybe at a closer location for both. Right now I am seriously broke. Until friday I am surviving off of 25 bucks. Good news, is that I filled up my gas tank at the beginning of the week.

Well, tomorrow I'll have another busy day, work til 4:30, karate from 5:30-6:30, and then an art gallery lecture/meeting with artists at 7:30.

Latest recommended anime: Mawaru Penguindrum

I am also in LOVE with this song here: Dear Future Deadend Remix

I believe that should be all caught up. C ya!

I need some tea, man.

Good news everyone --

I got the job at B+BW. Yay! So, it's part time, which means it won't take up too much extra time. It's only a few hours a week, but hey, it helps.

Otherwise, right now I have a slight cold. just enough to make me flushed, tired, and dehydrated, full of sinus crap, and headaches.

I still have to get the deal w/the studio so I can FINISH THOSE DARN PAINTINGS. GRR.

Also, since I'm a bundle of energy (usually) I'm still doing all of my usual things. And it gets me to thinking about some other stuff, which makes me a bit lonely (sigh)

Well, I guess that's it for now.